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So lately I’ve just been Doing Things without really thinking as much as I used to. I used to think that those thoughts were because I had some moral flaw or something that led me to “obsess” over situations, but turns out that I just have a lot of faulty wiring. Maybe the obsessions will lead to good stuff, I don’t know.<\/p>\n
I was teaching a class of 11-12 y\/os how to draw a chibi catgirl today, and I heard a lot of them ask how I could draw stuff so fast. “How do you do that? How do you free-draw like that? Tell me your secrets!”<\/p>\n
Hmm… I have a lot of secrets. Secrets pertaining to why I can do certain things so well, at least. I practice in secret, take photos of myself in secret to use as reference, spend a lot of time watching videos and reading books to learn things… if you do something repeatedly, you’re bound to be fast at it eventually.<\/p>\n
But I’m not very good at drawing. I’m not very good at a lot of things, actually, but I can wing it well enough (I hope). I’m also not as knowledgeable as I would like to be. My high school art teacher asked me a few days ago who my favourite contemporary artists are, and I drew a blank. I don’t know enough about baking and I keep flipping back to the same recipes every few weeks. I wish I could memorize everything!<\/p>\n
After I got home from my little excursion, I’ve been really throwing myself into the whole Master Plan. I feel stupid and silly every night (like a child that’s mildly aware of having embarrassed themselves or their parents, but not really sure the magnitude of the issue), but when I wake up I just force myself to keep moving. Who knows, maybe this will work out. I can’t imagine it either failing or working well. I can’t imagine anything anymore.<\/p>\n
I helped out with judging the science fair projects at my old high school earlier this week. That also felt surreal. I enjoyed the coffee a lot though… not many other people drank it.<\/p>\n
I don’t have a lot to say this time. I haven’t had a spare quiet hour to write lately due to how packed the past week and a half have been. I love being busy, but I didn’t get to spend enough time with my own projects. Balance is hard. Hopefully I’ll have a little more for next time. Until then.<\/p>\n
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\u96e8\u6c34\u3002 So lately I’ve just been Doing Things without really thinking as much as I used to. I used to…<\/p>\n