{"id":4783,"date":"2015-12-30T17:14:33","date_gmt":"2015-12-31T01:14:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.yinzhuohan.com\/blog\/?p=4783"},"modified":"2015-12-30T17:14:33","modified_gmt":"2015-12-31T01:14:33","slug":"reload-leaving","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.yinzhuohan.com\/blog\/thoughts\/reload-leaving\/","title":{"rendered":"reload – leaving"},"content":{"rendered":"

[bgm: \uc18c\uaca9\ub3d9<\/a>]<\/p>\n

This tradition, as I have been calling it for the past few days, isn’t really so consistent as I’ve been playing it up to be. I remember that I used to take making goals really seriously, even if I never consciously thought about achieving those goals throughout the year. In a way, I was putting off improvement and ‘growing up’; which I am still doing, but not as assertively.<\/p>\n

So, here’s a summary. I doubt I’ll be able to remember anything in detail (for better or for worse).<\/p>\n

January:<\/em> Fairly uneventful, and very cold in terms of the weather… amongst other things.<\/p>\n

February:<\/em> I did a lot of work for other people, and realized that I have no motivation to work for my own gains.<\/p>\n

March:<\/em> A good summary for this entire month: Skype. Simply put, I regret most of what happened from February to July.<\/p>\n

April:<\/em> Elections, Confed. project, failing English, and eventually breaking my phone. A surprisingly pivotal moment.<\/p>\n

May:<\/em> More spontaneous calls, more Socials and English work, more docs: by the end of the month it seemed much different.<\/p>\n

June:<\/em> Ignoring all the school events, I turned 15! Party of sorts, then a sort of emotional hangover.<\/p>\n

July:<\/em> Hopelessness, Planning 10, and then going to China. My vacation was spent whole-heartedly on enjoying a lifestyle I couldn’t ever think of back here; I have the rest of the year at home to sulk.<\/p>\n

August:<\/em> Went home, aforementioned sulking. Re-evaluates the half-year and my decisions regarding it. I end up at the conclusion that maybe I could have done things differently, rather than focusing on the spur of the moment.<\/p>\n

September:<\/em> School starts, and I put in much more effort into doing more than just okay in comparison to previous years. Not that I wasn’t “distracted” anymore, but simply because I had nothing else to do.<\/p>\n

October:<\/em> Continuation of school work and celebrating birthdays, then Halloween.<\/p>\n

November:<\/em> English class is enlightening (that was a joke), negotiations are finally made, and compromises ensue. Zero satisfaction. Also: haircut.<\/p>\n

December:<\/em> For once my assessment report accurately reflects the level of effort I put in. Volunteering, getting sick twice, and trying to maintain an air of composure (not really).<\/p>\n

However, just a list of general impressions from each month says nothing about what I have learned:<\/p>\n

1) What is a lie now, may have once been the truth.
\n2) Don’t use too many adjectives.
\n3) There is no such thing as too much chocolate.
\n4) Wear a jacket when your mom tells you to.
\n5) If overdone narcissism is your version of confidence, it’s fine. (Usually.)<\/p>\n

I also took a lot of pictures, watched considerably more movies, and listened to a lot of music.<\/p>\n

Overall, this year has been enjoyable, even if most of the decisions are ones I wouldn’t make again. I hope to continue incorporating both immature and mature aspects to my personality :D.<\/p>\n

The next posts will be on resolutions, goals, and things I’ll actively try to do differently.<\/p>\n

Until then.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

[bgm: \uc18c\uaca9\ub3d9] This tradition, as I have been calling it for the past few days, isn’t really so consistent as…<\/p>\n

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