{"id":4676,"date":"2015-10-05T21:26:01","date_gmt":"2015-10-06T04:26:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.yinzhuohan.com\/blog\/?p=4676"},"modified":"2015-10-05T21:26:01","modified_gmt":"2015-10-06T04:26:01","slug":"assessment-question","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.yinzhuohan.com\/blog\/everyday\/assessment-question\/","title":{"rendered":"assessment question"},"content":{"rendered":"

[bg music: \uacf5\ud5c8\ud574<\/a>]<\/p>\n

Routinely asks myself questions about my current place and I receive different answers at every possible point. I don’t know what that says about me as a person, or my ever-changing state of mind. But. Whatever.<\/p>\n

So. School is starting to be intense again. It will stay intense until, like, summer. Which means homework, and things I will actually have to do. I still have negative motivations and even less aspirations, so I guess I’m kind of screwed.<\/p>\n

I used to… kind of have a grasp on what my supposed identity was, or what it was eventually going to become. But currently, recently, as of late, I have no idea again.<\/p>\n

Contradictory. I’m a contradictory person. There. In four words I have summed up everything.<\/p>\n

[bg music: AIRPLANE<\/a>]<\/p>\n

This past school year (and the attached summers) feel unreal. What does feel real? I’m not sure.<\/p>\n

What have I gained? What did I learn?<\/p>\n

I have a lot more pink things on my desk, and figurines. I learned that I never learn.<\/p>\n

This summer was regrettable. But it was also the most fun I’ve had in a long time, and the most fun I’ll have for a long time. That thought in itself is quite regrettable. There still are many things I do not know from the summer, and although I’d like to know, I presume asking those questions would not be very productive. However, I regret in particular the fact that I took the time to explain myself, and for once, display my true thoughts.<\/p>\n

I suppose honesty isn’t appreciated, and that people only listen to reply, if the reply is all that counts. Isn’t it?<\/p>\n

[bg music:\ub2c8\uac00 \ud558\uba74<\/a><\/span>]<\/p>\n

Maybe this one will be shorter. I’m constantly worrying and overruling my previous judgements\u2014about other people, about homework, about myself\u2014and all I end up is 10x more confused than I was previously.<\/p>\n

Then I’ll leave myself to reminiscing, and you to your reading. Onto colder weather.<\/p>\n

Until then.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

[bg music: \uacf5\ud5c8\ud574] Routinely asks myself questions about my current place and I receive different answers at every possible point.…<\/p>\n

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